Decisions

There’s no attention, until an ascension
Until I thrive, there won’t be a mention
About who I am or what we could’ve been
That turns into “should’ve beens”
My solitudes attrition

You have a name that you have press on me
The way it put stress on me had effects on me
And won’t check on me until it’s a mess of me
Only muscle giving out is in my chest only

Getting annoyed
Time we spent together I thought you enjoyed
Reflective, I see you were just filling a void
Perspective, I was stitched and pulled like a toy
Then deployed

Disrespected, neither of us caring at all
Wanted everything but peace so I carried it all
The weight of your indecision, baring it all
Claimed that you would give, never sharing at all

Feelings that I had
For those in my past
Lead me on a path
Where truth put me last

I see I was never right
I see I misunderstood
We like who excites
Who asked if its for good?

My reflections drained and gaunted
Your projections I would flaunt it
I, the practice run
For those you really wanted

I’m only more anxious in the sight of blue lights
The lust for luster too strong, never been too bright
I need to change moving into my new life
But from everything to change, I must find the new price